If I didn’t care about you I wouldn’t be wanting to hurt or starve myself, and cry my fucking eyes out. I really care about you and words cannot describe how mad at myself I am. Because I will do anything to have you back.
Mann. This made me think of someone in particular and so special: ‘/
Sometimes.
Sometimes I miss you because I remember all those good time we once had, the moments where I felt so glad the time I didnt have much to worry about. You know if I could.go back to that time and click save forever I most definitely would you were my best friend, and someone I honestly thought I could spend the rest of my life with. Its the moments we once shared that will keep you forever in my heart. Thank you!
Tired.
I’m tired , tired of holding in all those lies. Tired of trying to be okay with you when deep down, I frown. I’m tired of trying to find the things I found with him with someone else. My heart belongs somewhere else . Eventually the right person will find it and help me. And cure it other than getting it and abusing it. I am more than sure of it. I will find someone who will hold me and love me. Someone who will see me for me. I am tired of fighting for something that won’t fight back for me. So please let me be. Soon you will see. You won’t find someone better than me.
Need to.
I need to get my act together and calm down , I have been hurt in so many ways and things have not been going good I forgot how to be happy for a little bit, than gained it all again . I need to just let God take control
Just to think.
Just to think you told me you were so different, just to think you actually had me going, just to think I wasted six months, but to think I actually learned from it. Just to think you were just like every other boy, just to think you actually broke my heart, just to think you always pinky swore, just to think it’s completely over just to think we have no more friendship just to think Mann .. Just to think you changed a lot..
Change .
So much has changed , I had lived two different lifestyles at a time . I thought it was okay when it simply wasn’t . I thought I could just let myself fall into arms of a boy who was supposedly so different from everyone else , who was supposedly MR.RIGHT when he really wasn’t . I thought I was gonna be able to be me forever with him but I guess not . And I am SICK AND TIRED OF IT , tired if trying to make everyone else happy . I am trying to make a relationship work but it’s not working . I feel so lost , I need to find myself again and not care what the world thinks , I am ready for a change!!
I smile because I am done with tears, tired of fears .
I am ready to let go of the past and continue to walk forward. I am done with guys acting like they can go beyond and amaze me but they honestly don’t faze me. By all their lies, it’s like they just wanna see me cry . I am done, I am ready to set in new goals , let go of fears and tears , I am ready for a New Year !
Something New < 3
I Am Ready to start over, let God take control of my life. Ready to let go of all my heavy burdens, Ready to just begin something new. I am tired of being treated wrong. I think found Mr.Right and he is so amazing , he is my best friend, I have known him my WHOLE life but never ever thought of him in any other way other than my best friend, but not only does he care and treat me RIGHT, he has SOO Much love for God I never thought I could find someone so different but yet exactly like me, he is someone who completely understands me when no one else does. he is amazing in so many ways. Many people look at him because he is an amazing talented dance but I look at him because he has the most prettiest heart EVER. I havent been on Tumblr forever, but because I was scared to let go of my past to let go and start fresh, I was scared to let something good happen in my life for once. But I am ready more than ever. I am ready for Mr. Right to come into my life. I am ready for something new < 3 : )
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Base By: Jahrenesis
